Sunshine In A Bag

I still have a lot of messages to reply to and stuff, augh I am sorry I’m so slow at this but I will get to them in a while. I just really wanna chill out.

Anonymous: Just waned to say you're really pretty. :)

Thank you anon, that’s really sweet. ;//u//;

Anonymous: I don't know if this is true but I read somewhere that you're going to commit suicide?? Please don't!! You have a lot to live for and a lot of people who care about you! If you didn't, I wouldn't have heard and most likely wouldn't be sending this message!

Well, thank you very much. I am really sorry I am just now getting around to actually answering these, I was just really freaking out. The stress from the lack of sleep and what is going on in my life finally got to me I guess.

Anonymous: Your avatar is simply adorable.

Golly, thank you very much. o//u//o

Anonymous: Hi, I was just scrolling your blog and you seem like such a sweetie. C: stay wonderful!

Thank you anon! c: I will try my best.

Anonymous: You are a wonderful and fantastic human being. Do not let anyone or anything tell you otherwise <3

Thank you anon, that’s really sweet but that wasn’t the problem that drove me to trying to do something so brash.

Anonymous: dont do it nigga

This made me giggle, thank you anon. ;u;

they

just

wont 

go away„

they keep causing me to suddenly open my eyes and ugh.

i haven

t 

slept well in so long

just put me to sleep please

i hate my shitty matress

and all this stupid stress.

fucl

i cant slack off on the ask blog

i love all my followers but wow i am not even sure if i can handle 

even breathing right now

just oh my god thank you everyone and wow I am so sorry I am a big dumb baby that can’t handle anything at all.

This is so stupid.

Like, this whole situation.

I don’t know what to do, I am so scared. I don’t have a job and I have no way of getting any sort of money.

I don’t have any sort of cool skills, I can’t draw and I can’t sew for shit. I cant really sell anything or play any instruments for money.

I didn’t finish high school and I don’t go to college.

Every job I tried getting, I never got a call back even though I called them multiple times, my old agency won’t call back or send me messages about the possibility of going back into modeling.

I am freaking out.

A cop came by to drop off this huge packet telling my mother something called “CACH, LLC” is suing her for $3k+ when we barely have enough money to pay for this month’s rent. I don’t know what to do, the packet says we can hire a attorney or something but if we did that we wouldn’t be able to pay rent.  

I’m so scared and so pissed off.

II just can’t handle this and it sucks even more because my mom doesn’t speak very good English so she doesn’t quite understand what the fuck is going on and I can’t help because I don’t speak Spanish all that well anymore, I can only translate really simple stuff or things that I actually understand.

This is so fucking stupid. I can’t handle this.

My mom has to go away for about 18 days, out of the country meaning 18 days of no income and I’ll be staying at home taking care of the cat and myself. I don’t know what to do. I am sorry that this is all over the place but wow what the fuck do I even do?

I don’t mind staying home alone for that long, really. I am just worried about not having money. And the fact that my mother is going back to our home country where she could get mugged or worse.

WHAT DID WE DO TO DESERVE THIS?

castielmpreg:

okay

i just thought this was important